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Since I’ve been kinda not here for the last couple of weeks,

I figured I should give you guys an update on some happenings on in my life.

Most recent occurrence: Nick’s sister and her family are no longer a part of our lives. The reason why is really stupid, I think, but whatever. It’s taken a lot of stress off of us knowing that we don’t have to put up with her over dramatic crap anymore, so Nick and I are not bothered in the slightest by this. The only change we’ve had to make is our plans for Easter; we were going to spend it at her house like we have for the last few years, but now we’re spending it with my dad and stepmom.

Nick is getting out of the military. It’s been decided, there’s no more talking about it, it’s happening. He’ll probably be out within the next 2 or 3 months.

Lilly is sick. Not like sick sick, but she’s reacting to the change in weather and is really stuffy and coughing a good bit. She’s pretty whiny but other than that, fine. She doesn’t have a fever or anything.

I have been in a really odd place emotionally and mentally lately. I can’t really explain it. It’s just like I’m not really all here most of the time. I’ve found it increasingly difficult to focus on more than one thing at a time - it feels like I’m literally being pulled in too many directions, even if it’s just Nick trying to talk to me about something when I’m focused on something else - and I often find myself getting really irritated because of it because I’m so used to being able to multitask. My thoughts are so scattered and it’s driving me nuts, so I cling to one thing at a time. I haven’t wanted to leave the house. I had to force myself to go to the grocery store yesterday because we needed food in the house. I want to go outside. I do. I just can’t seem to bring myself to. And the fact that it’s so freaking cold outside doesn’t help much. What the hell, it is spring, why is it like 50 degrees?

Anyway… I think that’s the important stuff? I’ve started drawing again too, since I had a sudden drop in that and haven’t really drawn anything in like almost 3-4 weeks? I’m working on a redesign for my dumb salesman and another thing that I’m almost done with. I have a ton of other ideas that I need to get down on paper, so hopefully I’ll be posting more art soon.

finally finishes listening to the azru playlist

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  • Me:I have anxiety
  • What most people think I have:I'm shy and can't talk to people. I'm awwwwkwaaaard.
  • What I actually mean:I have full blown panic attacks which include heart palpitations, breathing problems, shaking, sweating and constant fear that I'm going to die when faced with situations I find uncomfortable.